Hum kaafi saalon se dost hain. We met at the YRF [Yash Raj Films] gym around 2013. Meri pehli film release ho gayi thi tab tak, aur Kai Po Che bhi aa gayi thi. Mujhe woh tab bhi achhe lagte the. Lagta tha baith ke baat karni padegi.
In April 2019, we met at Rohini Iyer’s party. He said he fell in love in a day, but I asked for a few days. I had no idea, that ‘I love you’ will cost me so much.
Mujhe ek chhota Sushant chahiye tha, it was a running joke between us, ek chhota Sushi. You can understand by that how our relationship was like.
What attracted you to him?
What didn’t? Our friendship was the basis of our relationship. The way he saw me, I became a better person in my own eyes.ADVERTISEMENT
What happened on June 8?
June 2-3 he started asking me to leave. I was also unwell, I was getting anxiety attacks. June 8, I had a therapy session, and I didn’t want to do it at my parents’ place because I didn’t want them to see me like this. Sushant told me to leave before the therapy, I asked him to let me go after the session, but he insisted. His sister was coming over, he insisted that I leave before she arrives. I said I will leave only when his sister Meetu, who lives in Goregaon, arrives. But he kept pushing me to leave before she arrived. His family and I do not share a good bond, but I understand what a family bond is like, and I wanted her to come so he would be in good hands.
But your chats with Mahesh Bhatt sort of revealed something else.
Kya main kisise salha bhi nahi le sakti? Main toot chuki thi. I was obviously upset that Sushant didn’t stop me from leaving, he didn’t call me back, that he was almost pushing me out. I wondered if he wanted me to go because I was ill. I thought is it all over for him? So yes I was upset, I reached out to Bhatt saab but that’s only because I felt broken. He told me to think of my father, and listened to what I had to say.
Bhatt saab calls me child, messages mein bhi hai. His daughter is my age. That pure relationship has been misconstrued into something like this.
You and Sushant were in this relationship and went to Europe together. Wahaan aisa kya hua ki Sushant ki tabiyat kharaab hone lagi? Aapko unke depression ka kab pata chala?
Ji, Europe ke trip jaane wale din Sushant ne mujhe bola, ki usse flight mein baithne se claustrophobic lagta hai. Iske liye woh ek dawai leta hai. Modafinil. Uske paas woh dawai hamesha rehti thi, probably, and he did not have to get it with the help of a prescription. Flight mein jaane se pehle, usne dawai khud le liya. Wahan pohochke, Paris land huwe. Wahan teen din, Sushant room se nahi nikla. Before the trip, he was very excited ki hum baahar jaayenge. Sadkon pe chalenge and no one will identify him. He wanted to show his true side to me. He will do all those things there jo woh India mein nahi kar paata tha. I was wondering ki kya hua. He wanted to show his true side to me. Wahan jaake, woh room se nahi nikle. Second jagah, jab hum Switzerland gaye, wahan woh khush the. Energy achhi thi. Uske baad jab hum Italy gaye, wahaan hum ek hotel mein thehre. It was a gothic hotel. Booking se pehle nahi pata tha ki it is such kind of a hotel. Kamre mein dome type structure tha. Ajeeb ajeeb atrangi pictures the. Mujhe dekh ke woh kaafi ajeeb laga. Darr laga. But he said that it is fine. Uss raat, he couldn’t sleep. He said yahan kuch hai. Maine kaha ki bura sapna hai. We were getting worried. Agar aapko koi jagah haunted lagne lage, aapko ajeeb lagega. I said we should check out. But woh nahi maane. Uske baad se unki haalaat aur thodi thodi, he did not want to get out of the room throughout the trip.